The words were always full of emptiness,
And all the promises were broken
Even before they had been made,
Still I took it upon myself to trust.
I only search for truth in the darkness,
And though it matters no more,
After this glimmer of hope was extinguished
I am just longing for a little peace of mind.
I know that chasing will lead to nothing,
Like all the effort put into keeping things moving
Resulted in nothing but loss and pain,
And maybe a few lessons and a stronger will.
Sometimes I wonder whether the girl
Staring back from the other side of the mirror
Is but a reflection of the girl who could have been
Rather than the girl that I’ve become.
I then ask myself whether that girl can be proud,
Or would she hang her head in shame,
I once had big dreams, but have I killed them?
What would that girl I once was think of me now?
The world could have laid in the palm of my hands,
But somewhere along the way I got lost,
And as hard as I try to find my way back,
I find myself only getting sucked deeper into the spiral.
Then again, this is not a new story.