Lack of Faith

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My lack of belief,
Left, desecrated,
Before my eyes,
But where is sacrilege,
When there is nothing,
To be held sacred,
Except for words of reason,
And thoughts, logical?

No one understands,
That to decide one dislikes,
The bitterness of medicine,
One must taste,
The white tablets first,
As to give up belief,
One must be learned,
In the ways and means,
Of this thing called religion.

It is not waking up one day,
And deciding to give up faith,
But a battle of wits,
A war of reason with beliefs,
That must go on,
Until a conclusion comes,
That makes perfect sense,
That fits with the waking mind,
As with the sub-conscience,
A battle after which,
Comes peace and understanding,
Of the universe and oneself.

This battle raged on for years,
In the dark corners of my mind,
First giving up rituals,
And religious ceremonies,
Believing only in One supreme,
Until that too felt illogical,
And questions started to arise,
Over such an existence.

The questions always grew,
Cumbersome, and burdensome.
The answers always
Lacked substance,
I could not just believe
What I had been told,
Without questioning their roots,
Without thinking of consequences,
Without feeling this lack of reason.
Reason is the only reality,
And my curious mind could not sit idle,
With half held beliefs,
And half told answers.

At the end, the world could not,
Convince me that I must believe,
Without searching for a logical answer,
For the questions in my mind.
The mind is one’s greatest gift,
One’s ability to think,
And to put together thoughts,
To create clarity from chaos,
To reason with pure logic,
How can one not see,
The greatness in this?

My mind could not
Remain idle,
Without asking for
An explanation,
Of these things
We are told to believe,
As the lungs cannot
Stop breathing,
And the heart cannot
Stop pumping blood,
Without killing the being.

And so today, I believe in nothing,
But Life.

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I am linking in the above for Thursday’s Poets’ Rally Week 36, hosted by Jingle.

Also, I just wanted to point out that I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings, nor am I saying anything against religion. I am one who believes that everyone is entitled to their beliefs, thoughts, and opinions. I am merely stating my opinion.

Happy Rally everyone!