I am standing very still,
As I watch this life pass me by,
Without waiting for me to catch up.
They all moved on, from this moment,
But I found myself stuck, feet planted,
Just distant thoughts of evanescent dreams,
Reaching out to pull me back to the present.
And I am stuck in time,
Unable to take a step forward,
And I cannot go back.
The naïvety of love drowned in me,
The innocence to trust unconditionally.
Now I pine constantly to feel without pain,
To reach a state of being comfortably numb.
I watch the colors merge into white,
As they envelop me in a swirling wind,
And I find, time has passed me by.
The thoughts have become a blur,
I cannot fathom where one begins and another ends.
Yet I can still see myself clearly,
Standing in the midst of this bedlam.
The voices from the past echo,
Through the crevices of my mind,
But all I can hear is noise.
I was always so caught up in this inner strife,
I had forgotten what it meant to breathe.
Soon even the voices in my head passed me by,
And I found myself trapped behind these bars.
The footsteps can be heard,
Ringing through the silence,
But they can never be seen.
My footsteps were lost in the illusion of space,
No matter where I turned,
I was greeted, by only darkness.
And I could hear the distant siren of a train.
The siren of the train too was a blur,
Decoded from the depths of time,
Heard so faintly I thought it to be a lie.
I went running, trying so hard to catch up,
Out of breath, but trying harder,
That I might reach the handle of this train,
But the train of life left, it carried on without me.
There is only one thing to do now,
To start over from scratch,
And learn to walk hand-in-hand with time.
Note: The above photograph was found Here. I was greatly inspired by it to write the above piece.
Note #2: Apologies to everyone who has been commenting on my blog and not getting comments in return, or receiving them very late. I don’t have Internet connection at home right now, because of which all blogging I do, has to be done from work. It is not always the easiest place to blog from, and over the last few days though I have come to my office to use the Internet, couldn’t quite find time to visit everyone. I will get down to it as soon as possible, which should be soon as I think either today or tomorrow my Internet connection at home should be activated. Thank you to everyone reading this!